permanent end

We all are explorers on the great sea of life. We search and we hunt for our pleasure. Some adventures are fruitful, and some disappoint.
But, few find a gem they can treasure. Each step made me stronger, each test made me wiser. So on my long walk, I grew...

Disillusioned? hm...I stand motionless, like stone. On the crest of a hill looking out.
Over the cold gray world..Rain pounding my head and body..

When all goes wrong, and my life runs amok, I think of you, and I get unstuck. In the midst of chaos, you make my heart sing. You’re my peace, my happiness, my everything.....

Maybe, I am only a dreamer, a sentinel..Lost on this hill, a cold gray memory.
Only alive in my dreams, a wish. Of what could, but will never be.................

hari yg mbahagiakan

mlm ni xrs mengantuk pun.xtau la naper. mungkin krn htku kembali berbunger?
tp knp? MJL? maybe. or something else?...
whatever it is, sgl yg tjd pny sbb dan percaturan ini menyedarkan aku ttg nikmatnya sebuah kesabaran..

thank you Allah...
thank you friends...
and to U too... U know who U r...

sajer jer pakai font kecik giler ni

lama dah rase tak menulis.. smpai mcm dah xreti lak nak taip apa ni. try gak la eh.ehe.. tp nnt la sambung.mcm xder idea lak.uhuhuu.. smpai bertemu lagi ....... ;-)

show me the meaning of being lonely

so many words for the broken heart
its hard to see in a crimson love
so hard to breath walk with me and maybe

nights of lights so soon become
wild and free i could feel the sun
your every wish will be done they tell me..

show me the meaning of being lonely
is this the feeling i need to walk with?
tell me why i cant be there? where you are?
there's something missing in my heart..

there's no where to run
i have no place to go
surrender my heart, body and soul
how can it be you asking me to feel the things you never show.......

you were missing in my heart
tell me why cant i be there
where you are??

the truth

arini Benjo kawen. aku xdpt g. sori yer jo.
aku skt pale dr ptg smlm sjk dlm klas masa exam lagi.
maybe bcoz of the weather..i guess so.
hm...tmrow for me is like " a new day" come 2 work. lps apa jer yg dah aku beritahu, i am now waiting 4 the decision.. to my friends (u know who u r), i thank u for the supports, comments & effort uve shown.
really appreciate it. may God bless ya'll. thanks a lot.

* ni gmbr kt umh maria lg.saper yg amik ntah, wa pun xingt*

maria bertunang

aku g ngan cik ct 2/8 lps. maria bertunang. jauh giler umah dia ghupernyer.smpai2 lapar dowh..huhu..sbbkan ko wahai maria aka 'beria', aku g gk tau.

dia ni member kamcing aku ms benon dulu (dr form 1). aku salu gaduh ngan ko kan?sbb ko tu beria. ingt lg smpai aku kecoh 1asrama pgl ko maria beria. sumer follow ar, lekat trus. xsangka smpai btunang pn ko mmg beria.huahuuahuaa..marah ar weh. lama xgaduh ngan ko. wakaka.. xsgka lak aku ko simpan lg frame gmbr aku bg ko yg aku ltk gmbr aku sndr kt tepi pntai bsuar pendek tu! giler terharu siot! nak nangis lak rs. ahhaa.

tahniah! bln 10 nnt akan aku dtg lak kawen ko. insyaAllah..



+angah, ingat ker saper ct ni?ehheheeee... (syg angah)

go away!

malasnyer nk g keje skg nieh.dah xder motivasi lgsg nk ke opis. xbaik kan?tp ni la yg aku rs skg.... sumer gara2 'pok'.
naperla bkn dia jer yg resign?
aku yg masih mendiamkan diri dan trima apa jer kata2 lantang 'pok' makin dilihat sbg 'yg bersalah'.
lantak la apa diorg nk pk pun, aku dah xamik pusing.
smakin buhsan aku d cni.hr2 pk maner aku nk blah nieh.....
tp aku xnk 'kalah' krn org. aku xkan blah hny krn org. aku cuma blah bila dpt peluang yg lbh baik.

aku harap apa yg aku rs skg ni bukanlah dtg dr 'gangguan' dulu yg pernah aku terima..
dah xsanggup tempuh lagi..suffer..!
tp kalopun ia ada kaitan dgn 'gangguan' itu, aku pasrah krn aku tahu ini sebahagian ujian aku...sprt yg tlh diberitahu 2thn lalu.
smoga aku dpt melaluinya walau kadangkala aku ketakutan.
aku perlu cekal.

=selalu beringat khalida...=